a lazy nite

It's 1:32 am, and still, I can't sleep. btw, he's adorable don't u think so? he's out with his friends right now. And here I am without him watching dvds with my cat Grey. I don't know why I put this picture here. guess I'm a lil lonely here. blech, come on lamb.. lonely?

yeah.. yeah.. I admit it. Maybe I miss him.. yeah right, I do miss him. a LOT actually. even that I did went out with him yesterday. I just can't stop missing him. blah..blah..blah, I know what u're guys thinking. but spare me your comments. I just don't need it.

I'm an insomniac, I think. I just can't sleep at night. and I can only sleep during the day. maybe I need drugs. yeah.. I need drugs to help me sleep well. Anybody? anybody knows any good sleeping pills? That surely can put me to sleep. by the way, it's my fingers are writing right now. not my brain. It's malfunctioning right now. and I bet it is, ecause I couldn't sleep right now. even after i had a glass of warm milk. it doesn't work at all. damn, it does get me want to go the toilet now.

okay, I better stop right now, or else my blog will me a diary of mine. I better sleep. ah, different days, same old SHIT.

*phew!* What a crazy night!

I just got back. Me and boyfriend went out to watch TRANSFORMERS. Damn, it was a good movie. You guys should watch it. Great action scenes, freakin cool robots, and so do the cars. Man, that was the greatest movie that I've watched this year! it's crazy! how did they made a film that was so freakin awesome? geezz..

Optimus Prime as a truck(a very niceee truck), Bumblebee as a Camaro(I want one just like that!), Jazz - a Pontiac(how cool was that?), Ironhide as a pick-up truck and last but not least Ratchet; a hummer(great one!) It was so cool when the autobots transform. So freakinnn' cool! Not to forget that annoying Frenzy the Decepticon. But it is cute though, with that squeaky voice and disguising itself as a CD player. So cute even it is not on the good guys' side. ;) but the funny thing is my boyfriend fell asleep while watching the movie. Maybe he's too tired. Poor him. He was so excited to watch the movie but he slept during the final fights between the Autobots and the Decepticons. What a waste. But I can't blame him. He's just so tired for not sleeping well. Anyway, the movie was good. Our night ended up crazy(baby, it was brave, but MAD!). So now I'm back home safely, and he went 'lepak'ing with his friends at mamak stall. And I'm here with my half-closed eyes, finishing my post for today, and yeah.. I want to sleep soon after I finished writing. Hope I get to sleep well and wake up early tommorow or else my dad will get mad at me. Bonne nuit !

It's 4am, and this is what i got

It was late at night and I couldn't sleep. So as usual I sit on the chair by my desk, and start to wander around the table if I got something to get my fingers busy. So, as u can see here. That's what I did get in return. Pathetic is it? So lame. Everytime I got a pen and a paper. That's what came out. It's not from my brain. It was from my fingers! I started drawing stupid things. Like that man with no eyes and snake-like tongue. What the hell am I thinking? The worst thing is. The phrase, love.angel.music.baby. is the biggest sign among others. Sick isn't it. And also, what the hell was the STOP sign's for? Man, this is the stupidest things I had ever done since all my works. I never kept my work for myself. I love giving it to people. But not this piece. I'm going to keep it as a rememberance of my stupidity. *belch* excuse me :)

I miss him

I miss him. I miss his Bambi eyes pleading to me when he wants to sleep on my lap. Whenever I'm on the couch watching tv, he always fidget itself beside me. His soft fur really made me miss him. He left us last year. He got this virus, and suddenly he's gone. I remember the day when he got so sick from the virus, and his saliva was drooling averywhere; that includes my lap. Me and my sister brought him to a vet. He got a shot and the vet told us maybe he got viruses in him but she can't do anything as he never got a shot from any vet. After that we went home, and just for half an hour of difficult breathing, he was a goner. my brother buried him at the back of our house. I didn't cry as I'm not such weenie (I did cried a bit *sniff*). But since that day, I miss him a lot. Especially today when my other cat fidget itself beside me to watch tv with me. Duh, it's only a cat. And so what? I miss him like hell!

It's been a while (sound pollution)

It's been a while now I didn't posts anything. It's just I'm so lazy to post one ;) Gosh! the pilling sounds at the back of my house does get to my nerves! Can't they be anymore louder? Making me deaf anytime sooner. hmm, my life is going upside down now. But does anyone cares about it? Maybe I'll end it sooner. Depression isn't always good. Suicide is better? Lemme see.. It's an easy choice between two. But I'm going to stick to one decision right now. And I ain't going to tell anyone about it. haha. Crazy me. hmm, my friends.. they've been supportive all the time being. But I didn't get any chance of meeting them. Ayyat, especially. Now it's almost at the end of the holiday. And I didn't get to meet her not once. Ika, she's going to continue her study oversea in September. Gosh, just a few more months to go. Seri, it's okay. I always meet her now and then. Ainnaa is going back to Malaysia anytime soon from Russia. It's been a while I didn't meet her. Anyway, Zeera is back from NZ. But still, I didn't get a chance to meet her. Maybe I'll ask my mum to drop me by her house when she's off to work. -->On the 7th of July, my school is taking part in the international Band Comp. I think so. Natra ask me to go there. So does all my school mates. Can't believe to see my juniors in the flock of the band. I'm not sure I'm going or not. But if I'm going, I'll go with my boyfriend. I want him to be with me. Well, it's just it for now. Till then.

*yawn* I hate being bored, it sucks and I hate being hated. but this is only my opinion, no one else ever seems to really care all that much what i think. oh well, we move on...