June 19, 2007

oh yeah, i understand

Uhh yess I understand the whole thing about life. Now shut up. Dang its too crowded in my life. Get out everyone. I need to do some mind cleaning soo let me just let every thing out here. LIFE is soooo borring.. blech. I hate my page. Luv my blog. yaya! I'm all perky for once! Uh huh yeah I know I don't make any sense. Well this is a blog. Brought to you by blogger.com. Wait.. Why am I blabbering?

Hey should I really take my friends advice, "go fly girl!" What they meant was me, moi, to be a stewardess a.k.a. flight attendant. So that I can finally go to France; my 1st holiday destination. Then a chance to go anywhere in this world for a working stint? Is it empty dreams or should I do it? The problem is I am so not in the mood now, for doing anything. I feel lazy. Everyday is the lame old same, I woke up, watch tv, laze, mope. spirits down. Not like last year. I recall I was more chirpy last year. why ah? Could taking supplements help? I read that evening primrose oil is good for pms, mild depression. Will it help me or am I beyond help? Man I don't know.

Or maybe I can rearrange my study and go for masters? But that sounds so dull. I even thought of taking a sewing class. So that I can sew my own clothes. those in the market now are so awfully dull. In case I lose my job, I can still make a living selling my clothes. Good idea isn't it? yaya! what the..??!

The thing is, I know that the possibilities are endless, but I just need to get off my butt and do it.

Speaking of which my buttt is in danger of getting flabby if I don't do anything about it soon. I better get up and do something.

Oh well, I have nothing else to say as at now. Hope i achieve something by the next entry. Byee..

June 15, 2007

Materialistic



Materialista. Materialism. Materialist. Everyone consider it to be bad as they picture it a materialist tend to consider material possessions or MONEY and physical comfort as more important than spiritual values. It is bad. It is disgusting. But how do you not care about it as people nowadays can buy happiness with money. And through it the comfort lies. People tend to be nice to get money, and sometimes they act nice just because of money. Those grey stuffed people, full of smoky hatred yelled about us being a materialist. Can u spot it, people who loves us, cared for us. They give us comfort, sacrifices anything not just spiritually; all of their possessions, just to make us happy. And those who doesn't, they just ignore us playing blind and deaf just avoiding from providing anything to us. Them, them who spoke about materialism, cursing about how bad are we as materialist in a world where it's hard to explain as it is hard to breathe in this smoky lounge of misanthropy. I am a materialist, but not a gold-digger. A materialist that experience love from materials not spiritually. A girl that never experience love perfectly. Parental love. I've never been appreciated. All my effort seems useless. Only God's know what I've been through and what are ME and my siblings are living through. Imagine life of a stray cat. Being fed, not loved. It's painful. It's a pathetic life. As I want to end it. But my guardian angels is here. I have two of them. One is in heaven right now, looking down to me from above. And one is right here with me, being my lover, my best friend, and my soul mate. For an eternal happiness shall I continue my life and be happy to make it better.

June 7, 2007

REFLECTIONS

Great, isn't it?


June 5, 2007

the greatest of all


And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of human and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give up all I possess and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient; love is kind; it does not envy; it does not boast; it is not proud. It is not rude; it is not self-seeking; it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are lives, they will pass away; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge it will pass away. For we know in part and we breathes in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I grew up, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection, then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.

June 3, 2007

heroes?



HEROES, what a great show. At first ayinn recommended it to me. For just a few episodes I get sooo hooked with the show. Then my boyfriend said that he got nearly the entire episodes, and he got them burned on a dvd for me. After that my midnight movies was heroes. Watching them episodes by episodes until my notebook got so hot from playing the dvd. I just can't resist Milo, as he's Peter Petrelli in the show. He's hot. really2 hot. He reminded me of the show he's in before this; Gilmore Girls. He played Rory's rebellious boyfriend Jess. He's cute! ah! He also appears as Fergie's love interest in Fergie's music video 4 her single "Big Girls Don't Cry". U guys should watch it. Especially for Milo's die hard fan. He got these tatoos in the video clip, and he looked awesome! Who can resist this quiet, cute guy with the smouldering gaze of charm? Tell me!

Sylar, a.k.a. the villain in this show. He kills people, cutting their head open and eats their brain. What a psychopath?! That doesn't disgust me from watching the show. By the way, I just love how the show works. We can't predict anything for the next episodes. That glued my ass on the couch to continue watching the show. The show is the best since The OC. Agreeing with me guys? :) Anybody? Niki Sanders, that's the coolest chick ever. I want to be hot like her, and I want to be slim like her. Geez, that would be hard. Well, the shows ended with a stupid ending for the first season. How stupid is it, that not a single person realize about Sylar? Dammit! But that makes the show to be continued further, anyway right? i just can't wait for the second season!

blonde redhead



My boyfriend discovered a band that really captures me. Blonde Redhead. With a Japanese lead singer and two twins brother, can anything be anymore cooler than that? I just love Kazu (the lead singer) as she has this high, eerie voice which hovers over melodic guitar riffs and clockwork drum beats. Really cool. And she's hot too. An Asian chick who plays guitar and IS the lead singer of an indie rock band; geez.. I want to be like her. Nice musics, great lyrics. It's like ecstasy listening to their records. I just heard some of their songs, just a few of them. But I fell in love with the soulful voice and fuck, why didn't I discovered them earlier?! It's just a waste of art dammit! Melody is my favourite piece from the band. Maybe there's tons of their records that are good but I didn't have the chance to listen to it. They've released an album this year; 23, damn I didn't heard any of it yet. Maybe sooner or later I'll search for it.Hey guys, listen to them. They're fuckin' good!

June 2, 2007

Do good anyway




People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered. Love them anyway.If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Do good anyway. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway.The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind. Think big anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway. People really need help but may attack if you help them. Help people anyway. Give the world the best you have and you might get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you've got anyway.